Trainspotting. I have to see this movie.

This was to be my final hit. But let's be clear about this: there's final hits and final hits. What kind was this to be? Some final hits are actually terminal one way or another, while others are merely transit points as you travel from station to station on the junky journey through junky life.

Yesterday.

There is a saying that there are two places in the world where you are always welcome= church, and at grandma's house.
not true.
I was talking to my friend who was in a very difficult situation and she screams at me to shutoff the computer and when I explain to her the problem she says that my friend has issues.
more happens but I forget the rest. the point is I was cryingmyself to sleep last night.

people love me. people care about me.

I just don't care about myself.

I want it all to stop. but I'm not going to commit suicide. I'm not going to cut myself
but what can I do?
I need help, but I'm already getting lots of it.
it's not working.
Ugh.
I'm sorry.

:sob:

i'm a worthless fuck.

my feelings are indescribable right now.

i'm listening to the pretender by the foo fighters. I don't even like the song. I don't even like the band. FUCK THEM. david grohl can rot in hell. fuck him.
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i feel like a fuck right now.

everyone is yelling at me for things i don't do.

everyone is yelling at me.

people are telling me things.
'

i hate them.

somepeople are FUCKS.


=UGH.


STOP.
STOPSTOPSTOPSTOP.


I NEED TO END THIS.



OREO.



FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUC,.FF

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This made me lol. poor trees.


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Current mood: nice

currently listening to: faceless greed by Stabilizer, and Counting Blue Cars by Dishwalla

Currently playing: Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney. it's for DS. it's a lawyer game. you wouldn't be interested. why am I interested? because I'm like that, thats why. you know me. if you read my blog, at least.


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Sarah's right, I am a nerd who goes on the computer all day. but what's wrong with that?

if you have a problem, gtfo.
jk.
psyche, I hate you.
remember psyche? everyone used to say psyche when they were messing with you and it was hilarious.

I just stole that from Kyle Cease. But technically it's not stealing, since I admitted to it. more like borrowing.

Kyle Cease is hilarious. Check him out. he had a special on comedy central and it's AWESOME. download it off itunes. I can't give you the link because my web browser is retarted. because I'm on a PC.

I'm a Mac type of guy.

I lost my train of thought. I have to go make plans for the weekend. kthnxbai.

{.//.}

Mall tycoon frustrates me.

No, it really does.

I can't place the entrance to the stupid mall, and when I finally do, all of three customers show up during 3 hours of "time".
what a bunch of baloney.

It's four in the morning andthe tears are pouring and it's definitely worth the fight

Current Mood: Sleepy, but awake. you might consider me half awake, but also a little angry as well, because I have to type on a really, and I mean REALLY slow and old computere in the upstairs of my bubbie and zadies house, in theirr guest room. It's just annoying because I have to type really long sentences, and if I make a mistake, because their connection is so slow, I have to wait ten seconds before any text appears on the screeen at all. like if I wanted to type in COLORS I have to wait ten seconds before the whole rest of my blog shows up oin ther screen if I need to make any corrections for spell cheking., it's really annoying, even though blogger has an auto spell checker , I should just , I mean, I like to just write it -ttype it out myself because Ithink it'se easier.

Think that above was annoying to read? yeah, now you know what I mean.



Currently Listening to: Various latin Music over The internet. There's a new station called batanga.com, I'm listening to "Simpatico." it's latin music. it's actually really good, I think i'll visit more regularly now. I'll try some of their other stations. it might be good. It probably will be, so I'll try them.. You may notice I like a LOT of Web Radio. Mostly I like to listen to last.fm and pandora. Actually now though, I listen to them less and less "particularily last, fnm, I haven't listened to that in FOR-EVER. ( and pandora as well.) . I must have been listening mostly to AOL rtadio now, Xtreme ALT rock and the like other stations.

You may also note that I like to ramble. When I write, it's you usually freeform, so there you go. I love to write. Poetry, short stories, you name it. As long as it's not essays or research papers for school. Those are a pain in the ass. as you might expect ; )

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I'm going to try to make an ASC2 art piece.

"""""""""""\
_ ( ('.})\
( (_>o)\
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(( ((O=0))))))

I think thats a guy in a car.
,,,,,,,,
('-}\ _ (
(''' __ 0)\ (
(-O0)(O-0) (

and that's a bulldozer.

I MADE AN AIRPLANE EARLIER, BUT DURING THE PROCESS OF POSTING THE FUCKING THING GOT ERASED.

pretty cool, eh?




that last paragraph took so long I had to restart the computer (0-0)



I'm in Houston, Texas right now. I have family over here , and it's nice to see them once in a while (^_^)


WARNING: THE FOLLOWING CONTAINS INFORMATION ABOUT FAMILY MEMBERS THAT SOME MAY CONSIDER BORING. PLEASE TAKE THIS INTO CONSIDERATION WHEN READING THE FOLLOWING PURPLE-ISH TEXT:

I have my older cousin ryan, who's pretty cool. he's really good at karate, like a second degree black belt or something, which means he could breask 4 foot boards and stuff, which in my book is cool. I have my younger cousin's sarah and nicole. Sarah loves to sing, but listens to annoying music. she's real sweet though and I heart her ^^. Nicole is just nicole. she's just kinda random at sometimes, and she's really fun to be around ^^
Then there's my younger cousins ben and daniel. ben is shy and quiet, but he's really cute and smile's all the time. Daniel is very active and enjoys playing soccer. he's really loud, and big for his age.

My Bubbie, Zadie, Uncle Larry, and Auntice Michelle, and Auntie Cyncthia and Uncle David don't deserve special paragrapghs because they're adults. sorry if you're reading ,this guys, this is a kid's only privelage. for cousins. But you know I still love you. ^^





Boredom Stops here.





I might be going over to my family's house later. it'll be fun. Ryanj's XBOX JUST HAD TO BRAKE WHEN I WAS COMING OVER so now we can't play halo online against millions of other people, united as a family.

but we have gamecube, and I brought over two extra wave bird controllers, so someone else can play if he or she so desires.

Making the ASC2 art made me lose my thought process. I'll post more later. I know there was SOMETHING ELSE. but later.

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THE ASC2 YOU SAW HERE WAS REPLACEMENT ASC2. MY AIRPLANE GOT ERASED DURING THE DRAFTINFG PROCESS DUE TO A COMPUTER ERROR. ; (

AARRRGGHHH.
excuse me while I take my anger over the death of my asc2 art:



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THERE WE GO.

Uber pwned.

currently listening to: shut me up - mindless self indullgence

current mood: excited

I was using a proxy to go on myspace during school (in which I am typing this right now) when some asshole kid decides to tattle on me. Acutally, when I was using the proxy, the teacher was standing behind me the whole time, so I got my ass handed to me on a silver platter.

I just got owned. By a teacher.
Damnit.